I read an article awhile back on Art House America where the author talked about posting a realistic view of her life. She had begun posting about the messiness in Messy Mondays, and the article I read explained what this was about. She talked about “mom blogs” and how often we try to just present what is the best of us…and that is natural and not altogether a bad thing when blogging. Still…
“In turn, other mothers, regular mothers, tired mothers, new mothers, mothers with sick kids or stressful jobs or people like me who have a very, very low capacity for stress are left discontent, disheartened and wondering what mistake we must be making that our cups aren’t overflowing with these lovely moments. What my cup overflows with is coffee…that I’ve stuck in the microwave 3786493 times because I’m freaking EXHAUSTED and I keep forgetting that it’s in there.”
So, she posted pictures of the messy and the beautiful. Because that is what life is, right? It is messy and beautiful in turn. I could post a picture right now of my kitchen, but honestly, I just don’t have the desire. Not that I don’t want you to see it…I don’t have the desire to get the camera, take the picture, plug in my external drive I use for pictures and upload the picture and then get it onto this page.
Yep, far too much work for today.
What does this have to do with my current thoughts on Lent?
I don’t do anything perfectly. I sure don’t keep the house up perfectly…although I am much better than I used to be. I don’t keep up with laundry perfectly or cook the best meals all the time or spend my time wisely. And often on Mondays I am, frankly, lazy.
I’ve spent the whole morning doing nothing…other than playing with the amazing and wonderful Madeleine. She’s been asleep for the last hour and half, though, and I’ve not used that time wisely. I’ve wasted my time and not payed attention.
I don’t like when I do that….but….it happens.
We all get lazy. We all have our moments when our attention is on something it shouldn’t be, and we all get frustrated with ourselves. Even during Lent. Even when we’ve purposed in our hearts that this will be the season we will draw close to God and seek Him and be diligent.
We’ve rolled up our sleeves and gotten about the business of being serious. And, well, if you’re like me, you’ve stumbled.
With that said…I’m now off to tidy and do laundry and hopefully work out and get a few things done. And I hope that my attention will be brought back into line. I hope that the wonder that there was an Incarnation will arrest my attention today. I hope that the reality that God walked in the desert and faced temptations will astound me today. I hope that the reality of Good Friday will shock me today.
And that the knowledge that a Living God who loves me. Me. You. Will bring me alive again. Even on Messy Mondays filled with the reality of dirty dishes and laziness.
And sometimes it’s okay to rest! And not feel guilty about it 🙂 because those dang dishes and laundry piles aren’t going anywhere (unfortunately).
Thanks for sharing, I do often feel like “why can’t I get all that done” when I read other moms and yet I also know I have weeks when other ppl feel the same way about me.
I’ll tell ya…I can be lazy with the best of them. I have felt a lot more freedom in just playing with Maddie than I’ve ever felt before. Maybe that is because she was a surprise and I know, really know…for real, no doubt 😉 that she will be our last baby. I give myself more freedom to just play with her….and find that a great blessing.